After I put down the words in the last post I have started to cry. Mostly because they cleared up my mind. It is time to grow up finally, and I should not care how frightening it is. It is time to officially stand on my own two. Or at least start it.
The first steps will be. Put a schedule to every next day of mine, and try to avoiding saying no to my friends. Every day I should do something useful, even when I have nothing to do. Write. Every day I should learn at least 10 new words from any other language, but mostly from italian, and danish, maybe some german. Everyday I should hold on to myself. Learn, even when it is hard. Dont think about, just do it. Also should work with my own issues. And maybe should find some part time job, what I like, even if I dont get paid for that. And definitely should go back to dance, and meet new people. And not let the mess grow over me. The other stuff will be arranged by time, I dont have to think about the country now, whether if it is Hungary, Denmark, England, or Canada. It will be okay anyway.
Thats a plan. I will try to keep holding onto my plan, and now I have to learn.
eliz88
